Mirror Image

Throughout your life, you'll meet thousands of people, but every so often, you'll meet versions of yourself.  I know I've mentioned this before, but seeing as how I'm flipping to yet another new chapter, it just felt right to revisit.

I often find myself in younger people, such as friends who are on the cusp of new beginnings.  Lately though, I've wondered if I'm really seeing myself, or just imagining it because I wish I could go back to my own beginning.  Sometimes its like looking in one of those mirrors that distort your appearance.  Regardless of the truth behind my intent, whenever I do find these alternative Angelas, I'm overcome with the need to take care of them. 

I lecture, give advice, listen and ultimately compare them to myself.  It's almost as though I've tricked myself into believing if I can fix them, I can fix myself, when in reality, they are the ones fixing me.  As much as it hurts when they eventually outgrow me and move on, there is also satisfaction in knowing we've left our marks on each other and will hopefully be better in spite of the pain; that someday, we'll figure out the meaning behind it all.

Stress Me Out

I used to wonder what a stress free life would be like.  These days, I can safely say that I can't function properly without a bit of stress (unless I'm on vacation).  I suppose I've trained myself to respond to stress positively after all those years of procrastination.  At any rate, it's something that has come in handy, especially given my chosen profession.  So I suppose the only thing left to do is get another event rolling to bring those stress levels back up to norm =)

Shooting Stars

One of the reasons I don't like making last minute plans is that they almost always go awry. Take tonight for instance; a general plan to go view the meteor showers seemed innocent enough. Armed with blanket and snacks, we trooped up to Burnaby Mountain to stake out a spot. What we didn't take into account was having to keep company with some vicious Mosquitoes, increasing cloud cover, and researching what time the showers would actually peak. Needless to say, after 20 minutes of swatting, we double checked online and learned that the best time to actually view the showers is just before dawn. That's right - meteor shower fail! At least we've learned for next time =)

Off to count up all of tonight's bites =s

In Excess

Extreme!

Too much of anything is supposed to be bad for you. I suppose I agree to an extent; when it comes to things that affect us physically (i.e. food, exercise, etc.), moderation is key. What about things that leave an emotional or psychological mark? Those same things that change our physicality can also wreak havoc on other aspects of ourselves so I would apply the same principal of moderation.

Now I would question the emotions themselves. While no good can come from excessive sadness, can we argue the same for excessive happiness? Obviously if there was something I could give to everyone it would be happiness, but I honestly think that without pain, suffering, and loneliness, we would lose our ability to feel compassion, sympathy, and even love. There is a universal balance that exists in everything and a beautiful symmetry that uses the darkness to help us appreciate the light and vice versa.

Tomorrow I might chalk all this up to the cold medication, but tonight it just feels right to explain my thoughts on this. I've fallen to the extremes of both ends of the scale throughout my life and have felt as though there was no change in sight. I guess this is my way of reminding myself that things will always change when you least expect it and all you can do is remember that your world will balance out in the end

Time Enough

Posting with minutes to spare again tonight. Have you noticed a recurring theme around here? This week I'm blaming my tardiness on the slow descent into yet another cold/flu as the aches and pains start really taking over and my head feels like it's full of lead.

Although I'm failing to provide you all with quality content, I am at least not falling behind so thank goodness for small victories. Is it possible that the planner in me is finally taking over all aspects of my life? Quite possibly, but the state of my bedroom begs to differ.

So many things to do, so little time. Does anyone feel like volunteering to be my personal assistant for a week or two (or twelve)? =) Fingers crossed for a decent night's sleep so I feel more human than zombie tomorrow! Although, that would be an interesting point of view to write from...

Sick Again

It's been two days since the party and I'm still feeling under the weather which makes me think this is more than just your standard post-party regrets (aka hangover). No doubt it's bound to only get worse as the actual weather will take another dip this week as we wait for a stretch of more than 2 days of nice weather. This is all so depressing I'm taking to my bed for the night. Wake me up when summer finally decides to show up!

Secret Shots

Note to self: next time you think about grabbing a bottle of secret shots, remember how you felt today and put the bottle down.  Also remember how sharing a bed with a blanket hog could end up in a sleep fight and potentially getting pushed off the bed.

I'm off to continue my recovery now; back tomorrow for some explanations (hopefully)!